Stumbled across a reddit post the other day where a male was asking if he was gay because he liked cock, but wasn’t attracted to men. My ears (eyes) perked up instantly as this is the way I have been my entire life.
Those that have no empathy and are disinclined to listen will provide the knee-jerk response of “you’re gay” or “you’re bi”. But I know better. This isn’t theoretical for me, I’ve walked both paths and I know that I am heterosexual.
As an aside, I accept everyone’s sex proclivities, so long as we’re speaking of human beings, and both parties have reached the age of consent. You do you.
I have had male-to-male sex, both alone with a male, and with other males and females present. Initially it occurred as part of threesomes and foursomes where one or more females were present.
Then, as I was curious, it occurred with men alone. I honestly can’t remember how many separate occasions I had one-on-one sex with a male, probably six or less, but with only four different men. Without exception, I was terrified and largely did not enjoy my time with these men. I did enjoy aspects, but all-in-all, I did not enjoy one-on-one sex with males. And it was not the males, it was me.
What I learned was that I had no attraction to men whatsoever. I enjoy sucking cock and bringing a male to orgasm that way. I also learned that I had a submissive side, as I loved getting fucked and taken. I also learned that I disliked having a male sucking on my cock, and I’ve never had a male anally, because I just did not want it; it turns me off to think on it (whereas taking a female anally is exciting). But, to a man, I hated any kissing, cuddling, tenderness, or really even looking at the males. I was just here for the one thing: cock.
I’ve often thought about why this might be. I think, in terms of oral, I just love the “tell” men have when they get an erection. You know, for a fact, they are happy to see you. And when they orgasm, you know you were the cause. With women, well, it’s definitely murkier. As for anal, I just love letting my submissive side come out. And on top of that, it feels good!
After those one-on-one experiences, I realized the only time I wanted to have male-to-male interaction was when one or more women were playing as well. The women provided me the stimulation and focal points I needed. The male could play with them as well and I would be happy to pleasure the male through oral stimulation or him taking me, but when it came time for any emotional display (cuddling, kissing, etc.), the women would be the only ones I would interact with.
I’m simply not attracted to men. I’ve never, in my life, ever, looked at a male and ‘felt‘ anything. I have thought to myself, ‘I bet women would find him attractive‘, but I’ve never “felt” something, down there, if you know what I mean. I see women most everyday and I “feel” something often; could be a small something, but I know it’s there. That has never happened to me with males. Now, I have seen cocks and said to myself, I would love to suck that off, or to have it in my ass. But I just can’t think of the male himself or I get turned off. Also, even though I love cock, I have never gone in search of it since those six incidents in my early years. I don’t even look for porn on cocks or men (but I admit that I don’t enjoy porn that doesn’t have cock in it). I tried looking at gay porn and it just grossed me out. And it’s not the act they’re performing, it’s the men themselves. When I see a male, I might as well be seeing a wildebeest, or a gorilla, in terms of sexual excitement. It just simply isn’t there.
And then I hear, from some, “oh, you’re just in self denial“. Really? I sit here freely saying I like to suck cock and swallow a man’s semen, as well as take it in the ass, and I’m in denial about my male attraction because “oh, what will people think of me?” LOL. Yeah, that makes no sense to me either 🙂 Those familiar with me know that I don’t give one wit what people think of me. Truth is, I am turned off by male body hair and lack of… sleekness? Not sure the word here. Man is to an ape as a woman is to a jaguar. That difference is something I do not like in males. It doesn’t matter what the source of the dis-attraction, it exists, and it really makes my skin crawl to think of kissing a male or being affectionate with one (I’m literally shivering now as I write these words and try to imagine doing so).
Additionally, it has been at least thirty-one years since I’ve had cock. In all that time, I’ve never once said to myself, “I should go find me some cock” or “I need cock”. I definitely want cock, I do. But I know that unless Master participates, I don’t want it. And the way it’s looking now, it will not be happening. And here’s the really important part: I’m ok with that. So anyone who tries to tell me I’m gay or bi has no idea what they are talking about. I just like dicks bro!
I know who I am. I’m a heterosexual male that would like to experience male on male sex, in specific ways, while Master and I play with him, and possibly one or more other females. I love cock in my mouth or ass, and I enjoy bringing a male to orgasm through either means, but only when it develops out of the context of heterosexual relations. Add a woman to raise my lust and keep it up and then throw in a willing male and it’s a party! Some of my most fond sexual memories are of mixed threesomes and foursomes.
But yes, I do love cock; just not the male delivery systems to which they are attached.
