A few days later, as Steve sat watching TV on the sofa, I sat down beside him. I caught his eye and made it clear I’d something to say. As he cut down the volume I began, “If you’re up for it, this Thursday night I’d like for you to serve me again, sexually. Before you answer, I need you to know that I’ve done what I think best to make this a time that should answer many of your questions, at least those concerning our sex life. I can’t promise that you’ll be happy with the answers, but I believe you’ll end the evening with enough information to decide if you can submit to me”.
His interest clearly peaked, he asked, “What are you thinking we’ll do?”
“Whatever I want”, I sourly replied as I rolled my eyes. “I’m truly not trying to be a dick, but it’s important that you understand that I’ll not be tied down by your questions; not now, and not ever. I will tell you what I want you to know. If you ever feel there is a good reason for me to tell you more, then lead with that reasoning, otherwise expect the same answer you’ve been getting.”
“I do have a plan, but not only is it a plan I don’t care to share, it may change. It may even be altered on the spot. Your burden is to manage the uncertainty of knowing what you will be required to do, and to give yourself over to the fact that your only concern is to serve your Master so that she’ll be happy and satisfied.”
“Asking ‘Who?’ ‘What?’ ‘Where?’ ‘How?’ and ‘Why?’ are selfish questions, as they are only asked to satisfy your curiosity. In asking them you show disrespect and a failure to understand your place in our relationship. If you marry me, there’s only one selfish interest, and it’s mine. You exist solely to please me, and so these questions are inappropriate. I know this goes against how men are raised to think about women and relationships, but this is how it will be in my marriage. You’re are my property and will not question me.”
“I realize you are not mine yet, and that there is much to be done before we decide. But now that we have breached the subject, it is best we interact as if we were married so that you can understand what your life will become. The only difference between now and later is the level of explaining I am prepared to provide. This is all new, and so you have many questions. I understand and will help you, as best I can, to make this transition. But do not expect me to continue explaining the same concepts again and again throughout our marriage. I expect you to grasp the information you are being given and to understand and apply it in your daily service to me.”
“As for my thoughts and planning, I will always share with you what I am willing. And I very much desire to share my thoughts and feelings with you regularly, and to hear of your own. So, if I have not shared details, it means that I do not wish to. Today, that is difficult for you to understand. But as we go along, I hope I will earn your trust and it will be easier for you. If not, I’m happy to beat the doubt out of you” I added with a smile and a wink. “Is that clear?” I asked with loving but firm eyes.
He nodded his head in seeming acceptance.
It may have been just wishful thinking on my part, but this time it appeared both his words and his body agreed. I slid over and snuggled up beside him. Thursday night might be the end of us, I realized. But one thing was for sure, if not the end of us, it would almost certainly be the beginning.
